Ya Allah, it is me who has the mind to call people to Your Religion. Talking about some: "Be pious slaves of Allah and do all the obligations and refrain from all the sins." And then I turn right around and smoke weed and watch porn and masterbate and then I stand up in prayer in front of You like "Ya Rabb forgive me 😐" THIS IS ME!

I'm just tired Ya Rabb. I mean it's funny sometimes but now it has gotten to the point like "am I really going to live alll my life in disobedience to You?" I'm sick of smoking weed, I'm sick of watching porn, I'm sick of hanging around bad company, I'M JUST SICK OF IT ALL! But You wanna know what? I'm definitely not sick of asing for Your forgiveness and returning back to You.